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SORRY STAN IS RUDE WITH THE TRUTH BOMB

[stantheman]

That is not how you get it. You get it by having sex without protection with someone who has it or like sharing drug needles. Do you do either of those things?

DIDN'T THINK SO, EDDIE.

Our future.

[wheezed]

( eddie feels very attacked right now )

Well okay that's not what I heard but maybe I need to look into it more, I don't know. People say all sorts of shit, Stanley.

That sounds so crazy. You know what Derry's like. Gay people are just going to be able to get married there one day?

[stantheman]

You really should start researching things more so you realize there's not actually anything wrong with you.

Yeah. Anywhere most places in the world.

[wheezed]

I didn't really want to think about it. I kind of still don't.

That's. Huh. That's cool. I never thought that would happen for us, like at all.

[stantheman]

Well in general you'd realize your mom is crazy.

Surprise.

[wheezed]

She's not crazy she just worries, you know. There's a lot to worry about, I'm worried. I don't wanna die 'cause I stop paying attention and eat a blackberry or something.

[stantheman]

There's nothing wrong with you Eddie. Nothing.

[wheezed]

I mean. I appreciate the thought Stan it's very nice but we both know that's literally not true.

[stantheman]

Okay. What do you think is wrong with you?

[wheezed]

I don't exactly have an itemized list but I don't take all those pills for fun.
Maybe I should make a list.

Anyway sometimes you can just tell.

[stantheman]

Those pills are bullshit, Eddie.

[wheezed]

How? Doctors wouldn't give them out if they didn't work.

[stantheman]

They're not real medicine, Eddie. Your mom is lying to you because she's messed up.

If you don't believe me talk to the medical staff here.

[wheezed]

I know she's a lot but she wouldn't lie about that. What am I going to do, walk in and go "test me for everything please"? That's crazy.

[stantheman]

Eddie. Do you know me to make shit up? Why would I lie about this? She's fucking you up.

[wheezed]

I know you wouldn't lie, but she's my mom. Why would she want me to be sick?!

[stantheman]

It's complicated. She's the one that's sick Eddie. She's really, really sick and she needs help not you. Your broken arm is the only thing that's been really wrong.

And ever since I found out I've hated her for you.

[wheezed]

You know this is absolutely insane, right? People don't do stuff like that.

( except it's not like he hasn't sometimes wondered, maybe, even if he's shut that train of thought down as fast as it's occurred. )

I can't do this right now. It's just- there's too much happening right now.

[stantheman]

Yes they do! There's a recognized disorder for it and everything! I wouldn't make this up. I don't want you to be hurt why would I tell you your medicine is bogus if you need it?

Fine. But you should deal with it at some point. Your mom isn't here to shove fake medicine down your throat anymore.

[wheezed]

I know you wouldn't, I know. It just doesn't make sense. It's my mom we're talking about. She loves me.

I don't even know what I would do. How do I explain that? What do I even ask them?

[stantheman]

I didn't say she didn't love you.

Do you want me to do it for you?

[wheezed]

People don't do things like that if they love you.

No. Maybe. What do you think they would do?

[stantheman]

It's not... that simple, Eddie... It's an sickness in their head.

I'm not a doctor. I think they'll want to do what's best for you. They'll help you know what things are and aren't actually wrong. You deserve that.

[wheezed]

That's not fair. If people are that sick they shouldn't hurt other people because of it. All I do is make sure people aren't...messed up by all this shit inside of me, I try so hard. What the fuck?

Just, um. Just ask. Okay? I don't know what I'm going to do yet but you can ask. That's fine.

[stantheman]

It's harder with mental illness sometimes...

I'll ask.